Sunday, October 21, 2012

Are You Sure This Is What You Want Me To Do?

Speaking of the title of this post, I've found myself asking God that question a lot lately when it comes to my career and my overall chosen path in life. I know that my ability to connect with kids and teens almost immediately is a gift-its the thing I do the easiest with absolutely the least amount of effort. But sometimes this whole thing just feels like too much. Sometimes I feel like I stay awake too many nights worrying about that one child in the back of my classroom that I can't seem to reach. I feel like I shed too many tears when I've done all I can do and I still have to sit and watch some of my kids heading in the wrong direction, and having to pay the consequences for their bad choices. As much as I love what I do, at times it just hurts too much. What's the point of it all?

I know that God doesn't make mistakes, and if I'm honest with myself, I already know the answer to that question...He's shown me over and over that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. Sometimes it just feels like too much to handle, and I feel so tempted to just quit and go do something easier, that will make me a lot more money with a fraction of the stress. (Sigh) praying for strength and clarity....


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